The Thoughts of a Frumpy Professor

............................................ ............................................ A blog devoted to the ramblings of a small town, middle aged college professor as he experiences life and all its strange variances.

Friday, December 26, 2025

The Real Book



One gift I have been especially enjoying from Christmas has been a pair of books my wife obtained for me called "The Real Book".  These books are compiled sheet music melodies of many classic JAZZ standards.  There are actually a few volumes of "The Real Book" but I have the first volume in these gifts.  

"The Real Book" is a name given to this jazz compilation.  But, in reality the books are what are more typically (and generally) referred to as "Fake Books".  Broadly a "Fake Book" is a compilation of song melodies (basically the right hand on the piano) and devoid of the rest of the full sheet music (typically the left hand on the piano).  Instead of the left hand (bass clef), these fake books include chords which then can allow a competent pianist to improvise a left hand part to accompany the right hand's melody.  

What I received are two VERSIONS of "The Real Book".  The first one is Volume 1 in Concert Pitch (meaning the key non-transposing instruments like piano, guitar, flute, oboe, bassoon, trombone, tuba, etc).  But, my second copy is Volume 1 in Bb (B flat) which is for the transposing instruments such as clarinet, bass clarinet, tenor saxophone and trumpet.  

As I primarily play bass clarinet and tenor saxophone, having the Bb version is tremendously useful to me for playing.  But, as I want to attempt to learn appropriate progressions (in whole chords or in patterns such as arpeggios) for these songs that I can play on the piano that would work along with my Bb instrument, having the concert pitch volume is also very helpful.  

I am thankful to my wife for these two spiral bound books.  I think I will have fun with them.  And, I think they will help me with trying to develop more of a sense of improvisation as well.  And, I am hoping too that these books will help me to move beyond my rather rudimentary knowledge of chords into a greater understanding and ability to apply, shape, and develop more spontaneously.... chord progressions and more successfully improvised harmony to songs I like.  

And, perhaps more of a "pipe dream" I hope/imagine working with these two books together will help me to build strength in actually being at least better in being able to transpose in my mind, music that I am sight-reading.  That may end up being beyond my abilities, but many folks can and do do this.... and I would like to try to develop the ability myself... even though it will be hard or perhaps near impossible for my old neurons to become adept at. 

I will be heading out to go to a special, non-Thursday, rendering of the "Retiree's Cigar Group" this afternoon!  Everyone there decided we should do this since the shop was closed on Thursday due to Christmas.  

PipeTobacco

Thursday, December 25, 2025

Merry Christmas


The above cropped image of one of Normal Rockwell's many Santa illustrations has always been the one to me that formed the deepest impression for me of SANTA.  Even as a very young little boy, this was how I imagined the real Santa to be.  The disheveled desk, Santa's ornate pipe...... even featuring an ornate wind cap (!), the fullness of his beard and mustache, and the cragginess of his face.  

I hope that all of you are able to have a joyful, very Merry Christmas today!  May the day also be peaceful, calming, and kind!

PipeTobacco

Wednesday, December 24, 2025

Too Much


There are some (many) things that are just too much, in my opinion.  Modern society has several things that are just TOO saturating and overstated and overboard.  I feel in many ways I am needing to figure out some way to be less exposed to SO MUCH of these things.  It feels unhealthy to my mind, my body, and my soul.  What things are too saturated in modern society:

  • too much politics... both the side I tend to disagree with and the side I tend to agree with
  • too much over-the-top behavior from too many people
  • too much spotlight seeking behaviors from too many people
  • too many social or political groups shouting louder and louder and spewing more and more nonsense to get attention
  • too many things are too electronically focused
On this Christmas Eve, I am hoping that I can move away from the EXCESS to something that is more balanced.  I need more balance between work, rest, family, and myself.

I hope that all of you have a wonderful Christmas Eve today!

PipeTobacco

Tuesday, December 23, 2025

Comments on Comments in the Last Week


 

AC stated:

I think that you had an unusually hectic semester. Enjoy what rest you can and hopefully have a slightly reduced load next time around. 

I actually have one extra upper division course next semester.  But, all things considered, I am working/aiming to have a smoother semester.... with hopefully no phone issues at least, and I am striving for calmness and routine by trying to better plan ahead the majority of the semester.

Whether running or otherwise, you do keep up quite a pace.

I guess I have a somewhat heavy pace.... but I keep coming back to the idea that it sure did not feel like such a pace previously.  I am still not really sure why it feels so different.  Of course, electronica is part of it, and a major new wrinkle is that the U has adopted "Workday" which is a management system for paperwork and it is really horrendous.  It makes MORE paperwork for everything sadly, and because no one seems to really know how to use it, it typically requires multiple attempts even for the most seasoned folks in HR and Purchasing... let along how difficult it is for us faculty who get very mixed messages about how navigate this horrible system.

If our brains are developed and settled by 25-28, when does the decline begin for the average person? I realize there are many variables, but can a rough average date be established?

There has been a lot of recently discerned work on this and according to the most current literature, there are four (some say five) distinct stages of neural development:

Prenatal to ~9 years old - young brain - major active growth

~10 - many now say to ~30 - the adolescent brain

~30 - ~60 - the adult brain

~60 - ~80 - the aging brain

80+ the elderly brain

With the above, the development of new connections is in the young brain and to a lesser extent the adolescent brain.  The adult brain is considered a stable/status-quo state, and roughly 60 or so, there is the start of decline.  But, as with all science, it is based upon probabilities... so the ages of onset and transition should really be viewed as ranges.  And, the above is based upon what has been SEEN, not necessarily what CAN be.


DMP stated:

aren't they (filberts) a problem for kidney stones? oxalate content?

I had not thought about the oxalate issue with nuts in quite a while, as I fortunately, have not had issues with kidney stones and hopefully will not.  But, I did some exploring to refresh my understanding.  As you stated.... almonds ARE very high in terms of oxalates and ARE very risky for folks prone to kidney stones.  But, from what I found, it appears that filberts (hazelnuts) are more in a "medium" oxalate level category.  From what I found, filberts have only 1/8th ( ~12.5%) the amount of oxalates per ounce compared to almonds.  Filberts appear to be similar to several other "medium" nuts..... like cashews and pecans.  The "low" oxalate level nuts appear to be macadamia nuts, peanuts, and walnuts.... which roughly have only 1/20th (~5%) the amount of oxalates per ounce compared to almonds.  


Margaret stated:

The expectations of the holidays are something I've fought against, but I usually lose. I want the traditions to be less stressful and joyous, but they often turn into pressure and disappointment. I hope that your holiday isn't too chaotic or upsetting and that you can find some peace and happiness in the midst of the family doings.

What you state above reflects very well my own feelings but is said more eloquently and succinctly than I typically manage.  I am trying to find moments and times of tranquility during this season.  

I didn't realize that filberts were the same as hazelnuts. I like them a lot in things but don't generally eat them by themselves. Unstructured time with pressures on isn't relaxing at all. 

Yes, they are synonyms for each other that are frequently not well known.  Another food item that seems to have similar recognition of not commonly being known in both forms is the chickpea that is also known as a garbanzo bean.  I am not sure why.... but it seems that most folks learn and recognize ONE name for either of those two items.... and their alternative synonym is new to many folks.  I think I remembered the filbert/hazelnut synonyms especially... from my childhood as most of my aunts and uncles always called these nuts "acorns" which I sadly figured out when I opened and tried an actual acorn from an oak tree when I was small.  Acorns are very bitter, unlike hazelnuts/filberts that are (IMO) exceptionally delicious.  My many relatives referring to them as "acorns" also was one of several impetuses that had me relish pouring through the large, Merriam-Webster Dictionary I received as a young kid one year.  I always cherished that book:  



Paper does tend to accumulate TOO fast! I'm so happy you've found and bonded with the Cigar Group. I remember how apprehensive you were at first. Like many things, you don't know how it will go until you try!

Yes, paper is such a chore to keep track of.  It is interesting that with the fall of newspapers, I find it challenging that even though I have SO VERY MUCH 8.5 x 11 inch paper in damn near every spot of every U office and lab I have.... plus a whole helluva lot at home too..... besides MISSING reading the actual news in a real "old school" newspaper.... I miss the USEFULNESS and reliable AVAILABILITY of old newsprint for other uses (wrapping, packing, cleaning, etc).  I now HOARD any occasional newsprint I acquire.  The only newspaper available in my region in a real paper format now is the New York Times (other regional papers in my parts are too pitiful, sporadic, and only filled with regurgitated news).  But, with a paper NYT costing $4 weekdays and $6 on Sunday.... it is a guilty pleasure only indulged in perhaps once a month or so.  Reading newspapers on a Tablet/Kindle..... just NOT the same.... even though that IS what I and damn near everyone (who reads newspapers) has to do now.


Pam J stated:

*I was listening to Zadie Smith on the radio this morning, the author of "White Teeth", a book I've never read but have now put on hold at the library. She said, that she was paraphrasing Freud and that she wanted her children to have ordinarily sad lives, to have some work that was meaningful, and to have love. That caught my attention, so I looked up what Freud said, and he did not believe that a life could be lived without ordinary unhappiness. I would have to say I agree with Freud about this.

*Life is full of loss and sadness, intermingled with moments of joy. I suppose it's how we deal with the losses and enjoy the moments of joy that decides how we live our lives.*

Pam.... I agree with your assessment and with Freud and also Smith's interpretation.  But with my penchant for science fiction (not the mumbo-jumbo fantasy genre, which sometimes gets clumped in with science fiction but IMO is polar opposite), I have often imagined a novel with the ability to warp or shuffle time so that we could order and arrange our times of happiness and joy based upon the finite time we would be on Earth.  I had always imagined in that sci-fi mindset I would organize all the horrors and sadnesses first and then have my happy times arranged by degree of happiness within the latter aspect of my time.  


Pat M stated:

I'm sure you remember, Professor, how at the dawn of the computerized office the technology companies regaled us with promises of the "paperless office." Yet somehow we've ended up with as much paper as before... if not more... along with the computers!

Haha!  Yes!  And I would suggest the.... "if not more" that you state is the most accurate!  The number of 8.5 x 11 pieces of paper scattered about every surface is an (annoying) sight to behold in my offices and labs.  It used to be that we had BOOKS we cherished for years/decades, and writings were accomplished in notebooks.  But NOW, damn near everything is computer generated and is printed and distributed as loose paper.... and often times printed MULTIPLE times to correct several times the various typographical errors found.

(referencing my own words).... "ADD is an important word for me to emphasize.... my mind typically thinks of NEW tasks, NEW roles, NEW foci as being ADD-ONS and not replacements or substitutions."

Perhaps the above gives us some insight into one reason why the DELETION of your pipes hasn't given you the solace for which you might have hoped, as making that change didn't ADD to your routine?

Yes,  I can see and understand your idea.  My pipes were deleted.  For reasons..... I thought valid.  I do have to say that I have been ever more consciously considering going back to them as I mentioned a little bit ago.  

More broadly, though, I wonder whether you might be able to think of your activities through a wider-angle lens? If you can think of "professorial duties" as encompassing a wide range of activities, perhaps it's not a "replacement" or "substitution" to focus more on some of those duties (e.g. mentoring) and less on some others (e.g. committee work)?

You are correct that I should do this.  Part of me wishes I had more of a typical workday where after my eight hours, I could traipse out of the building and forget the place at "quitting time" until I have to report back 16 hours later.  But, educators nor scientists rarely if ever get that sort of clear-cut delineation of their work life and non-work life.  Or at least I have never known one who HAS those clear boundaries.  And, the thing is also true.... for me.... right now I am in a state of mind where I just am not wanting to "switch-it-up" to do things differently.... because.... because.... it seems too time consuming and cumbersome to FIGURE OUT the "new paths" to take.  I guess this resistance on my part stems in part from my woefully inadequate attempts to try to "8 hour" things to some degree.  

Somewhat related.... a few years ago there was a phrase coined to describe a work ethos called "quiet quitting".  It typified folks who strived to just "do" their job and no more.  In some ways that concept has appeal.  It seems as if it might be a way to regain time and freedom.  But, I do not really know if that can be done by an educator. 

Similarly, "parenting" looks different when you are parenting a two-year-old vs. parenting a twenty-two-year-old. Some specific activities and priorities are very different at those two different stages, but they are more like '"refocusings" than "replacements" or "substitutions."

I think you are right.  But, at this moment, my mind really is unable to focus much on how to even potentially "fix" those challenges I have been facing.  I have to reason through it more.  

If you can accept that perspective/approach, then maybe you can even look at something like "exercise" in a broad manner, recognizing that it's not so much that you are "replacing" or "substituting" some activities for others, but more that you are continuing your exercise in whatever manner is appropriate at whatever stage you are in. For example, if you are currently running 10 kilometers each morning, and doing so takes about an hour, you might focus on maintaining the "run for an hour" routine rather than the "run 10 kilometers" routine, and by doing so make an adjustment that is entirely appropriate as you age.

Again, true.  But, I hate the feeling of decline.  This last bout with plantar fasciitis has thrown me for a bit of a loop.  I am still down in mileage and still not fully back up to snuff with regard to it.  It disconcerts me.   


Friday, December 19, 2025

More Randomized Thoughts

 

More random thoughts today, as my mind is all over the map:

  • While growing up, and when our kids were young, I always envisioned the Holidays as my wife and I became older.... as becoming more of a fun, relaxing time where family would gather and things would be peaceful and calm, and that we could host gatherings and have kids and grandkids visit and then at the end of the day, folks would go home and my wife and I would peacefully tidy up and enjoy each other's company doing so.  
  • The above is unlikely to occur anytime soon if ever.  And, when I (unfortunately) allow myself to think about this, I become sad.
  • Mostly what I anticipate for this holiday is my trying as best as I am able.... to manage my own stress.  Basically, what typically transpires is a chaotic mess of stressors from a number of sides.... our kids.... our relatives.... our friends.... where we have various "expectations" we are meant to navigate and do.  My wife has a strong tendency to want to meet all of these expectations.... and most of all.... this leads to continual altering and changing of plans, shifting of duties, shifting of responsibilities.  This constant adjusting and modifying plans keeps me on edge in addition to the other edgy things occurring.  
  • When what I want to do is rest and to be peaceful and contented, and what actually transpires instead is simply getting things done to "get through it"..... it can be exhausting to my mind and spirit.
  • Today (31 years ago) is the evening my niece swallowed a bottle of her parent's high blood pressure medication.  One of her siblings went into her bedroom and awoke her and she was rushed to the hospital and given charcoal and medications to induce vomiting.  She did vomit out much of the medication and was talking with people.  Unfortunately, enough of the hypertensive medication had worked through her system, that overnight her heart stopped and she could not be revived.  She passed away 31 years ago on what would be tomorrow.  If alive, she would now be 48 years old. 
  • I still have the present I had bought and wrapped for her stored somewhere.  I had wrapped it the evening before and had packed it into my trusty Rabbit (along with many other presents) the evening before all this transpired.  I lived farther away than at a more distant city I taught at for one year.  I had been so looking forward to Christmas with family that year, as it was only six months earlier that my Dad had passed away in this same year, and I needed to feel the bonding with everyone.  Christmas was not, of course, anything like I had been imagining.  Her funeral, funeral Mass, and her burial were our reality.
  • I am just trying to just push through to get to the other side.  It sounds awfully damn pitiful and stupidly maudlin... but I am mainly now looking forward to having the new semester start.... and allowing things to return to a relative sense of normalcy.... even with the work related challenges.  
  • Only a small handful of folks were at the Retiree's Cigar Group.  It was enjoyable.  But, I could not really rally and get myself into a sense of "exuberance" or "joy".  I am glad to have gone, but it did not help foster the peace nor tranquility I had hoped.  
  • Today I am working to try to get my critters settled away so I only have sporadic U visits to them during the next week or so.  
  • I ran (only 5 miles (~8km)) and lifted some weights this morning.  I have started out with a light load that I think I will try to maintain until the start of the year.... to allow my arm and chest muscles used to the added work being expected of them.  At the start of the year, I will work to gradually increase the load bearing levels I am lifting. 
  • I look at my pipes, in the various places I have them.  I have the requisite pipe-smoking Santa statue by the round pipe rack in my home office like usual.  I have the Santa hat atop of the glass lid of the pipe tobacco canister in the center of my round pipe rack like usual as well.   But right now, even they seem sad to me.  Only when I drift off to sleep remembering the wonderful times with the many folks I miss, remembering the wonderful times with some folks as they used to be, and remembering the wonderful times with my pipes, am I feeling a calmness.  
PipeTobacco

Thursday, December 18, 2025

Out....





One of the things I have come to realize during the last day or two, even though I should damn well already know this.... is that.....

  • In order for me to NOT feel "edgy" and "out-of-sorts" I need to have a game plan that I follow each day.
  • Now, hold on.... yesterday I said I WANTED UNSTRUCTURED TIME, UNPLANNED TIME
  • Yes, I did.... but I meant it more that what I want is to KNOW what I NEED to accomplish in a given day..... so I can get it DONE.... and THEN I can have the rest of the day be flexible and free and UNSTRUCTURED.
  • This is why I gravitate towards doing my exercise first thing in the morning.... to get something important and hard OFF MY PLATE.
  • This is why I have managed to have the vast majority of my classes be scheduled for as early as I can in the day, so that I can accomplish that needed work.... and then it is OFF MY PLATE.  
So, with the above ideas in mind, it is far more understandable to me how and why I felt ornery and out-of-sorts with myself the last few days.  I did not follow the above.... I DID NOT get required things off my plate as quickly as I could..... instead, I hemmed and hawed and delayed doing many of the required things..... and this left them LOOMING in my mind until I eventually got them done.  But, the LOOMING nature of it was exhausting to me!

So, even though I WANT MORE UNSTRUCTURED TIME..... I have to realize that to GET UNSTRUCTURED TIME in a way that feels wonderful.... I have to better think through and PLAN to get the essentials off my plate first.

Seems OBVIOUS.... but after grades were submitted, I just sort of meandered.... and yet still had things that needed to be done.... and that had me feeling edgy all the time because I delayed getting things done so I could RELAX.

So, I am now off to go to a candy shop for some things needed for Christmas..... including filberts in the shell.  None of the grocery stores around here have filberts in the shell this year, and I do not know why.  But, as soon as I buy two pounds of these hazelnuts.... and also some of their specialty candies (for my wife).... I will be heading over to the Retiree's Cigar Group!

PipeTobacco

Wednesday, December 17, 2025

Miscellanea

 

  • I still feel rather cruddy physically.  My extensive stretching to alleviate my heel discomfort has diminished that probably 95% which is good, but the new stretching has ultimately resulted in my lower back (latissimus dorsi muscle) to be very sore and tender now.  I believe that long term this will all work out as the tightening of the back muscle was probably due to the heel pain, and working through one aspect is bound to make the other compensatory muscles ache as you work to correct things.  But, it is tiring.  The back pain was extreme yesterday, but I added some extra back stretches, and it is perhaps 70% less this morning.  I have been reducing my running during this time to only ~5 miles a day (~8 km).  
  • I am trying to keep a "stiff upper lip" these days, but I am feeling very much drained.  Just some basics include:
    • The not feeling up to snuff due to my heel/back.
    • Later this week, it will be the 31st Anniversary of when my young niece committed suicide.  It is shocking to think that she would be 48 years old now if she had chosen to live.
    • The exhaustion of a difficult semester still is weighing more heavily on my mood than is the relief that grades are submitted and in. 
    • My wife waits until now to do a lot of last minute Christmas shopping.  And, this means sometime in the next few days there will be a wrapping "party".  I can wrap presents VERY beautifully.  But, I am just not WANTING to wrap anything.  But, if I do not, I will disappoint.  So, I am not looking forward to spending much of a day wrapping, and then cleaning up the mess.
    • The tragic murders of Rob & Michelle Reiner by their kid also has darkened my mood and spirits.  Obviously I do not know any of the personally, but I did admire Rob's work, and the horror of what appears to have occured is difficult.
    • I have not gotten as far as I had hoped in planning and editing things for the next semester of classes, so I have that to do as well.  
    • What I guess I WANT.... is 2-3 days of NO tasks/work, NO scheduled events, NO duties, NO anything planned, required, needing my attention.  And, I know it will not happen.  
  • The one PLANNED event that I do hope goes well is tomorrow's Retiree's Cigar Group.  I keep thinking of that 2-3 hour reprieve.  
  • The title for this post (and the image) are intertwined.  I am posting just a few random bullet points, hence the "miscellanea", but also it is a very interesting album that came across my Pandora recently.  It is by a fellow named Luigi Zito.  A snippet of the song of  his harpsichord focused music can be heard here
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